...since we were labeled as infertile. Some of those minutes still feel like that very first one. It is harder to breath, I feel tears falling but am unsure why, I am encompassed by so many emotions (anger, sorrow, frustration, loneliness...). At the same time I had hope during all those years. I was hopeful that we could get some answers. That we would be moving forward on a path to help us have the family we were longing for.
If you have not been reading my blog from the beginning please take the time to go back and see all that we have walked through from 2009-2012. At the very least if you are not someone who has struggled with infertility I ask you to READ THIS because chances are someone in your life has.
We endured numerous tests, I have taken a countless number of pills and received more injections than I care to recall during those 3 years. Each month I would remain hopeful. I was given good reports each time I went to the doctors office. Never was there an issue that said WOAH STOP! Nothing was ever found wrong. That is still the hardest part to me, I wish there had been a problem. Something to fix.
Since I maxed out the number of treatments I could do with Kaiser we knew it meant that it was time to bring in the heavy artillery IVF. We have been discussing the morality issues regarding this treatment as well as saving up the money to pay for it. Over the last year we have been blessed beyond belief through friends and family. The donation of items and recyclables will never be forgotten. It has been difficult to remain hopeful during this time, but I do trust we are moving down the right path.
I have learned a lot about myself and my marriage through infertility.
Strength
Courage
Unconditional Love
Partnership
Communication
Please keep us in prayer as we begin to meet with clinics, that we would find the best Dr. for us. That the clinic would be understanding and willing to work with us within the morality parameters we have discussed. Pray that we would qualify for a special program in which we can get a discount on the cost per treatment and a portion of our monies back if all of the treatments are unsuccessful.
