October 31, 2007

7 days

Tomorrow morning it will be 1 week since I took the first test. There is still no sign of my cycle showing up. I want to get excited and I can feel it bubbling up inside me but I am afraid to crash if I get another negative result. I am trying to keep my feet on the ground and think about other things. I was rambling about it to Paul last night how we wish it would have happened the first month we were trying, or the second, or third but thinking about work and timing it seems as if this would be great timing. I would be able to be home for over a month with the little one before having to take any of my leave from work. By my calculations IF I am pregnant the little one would arrive between my FIL birthday and TKs. I think that would be super cool. I am still torn about if I should take the test tomorrow morning because I am in a sort of fantasy land where I can pretend somewhere deep in my brain that I am in fact pregnant.... Time will tell.

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