The End

It took 6 hours for the lab to get my test results posted.

My 6th IUI cycle has failed.

I cannot see the screen through my tears, I have no words.

Last Chance IUI

Today is the day. I have never been so scared and excited at the same time. I wish I could push all of the what-ifs out of my head.

The procedure was not a dream come true like last time. It was very painful, although I am glad that the RE was able to get all the way in.

Now we wait....

In 2 days I will start the progesterone and will continue for the next 2 weeks.

Final monitoring

My last sonogram was done today. Wow were those follicles growing! The RE mentioned that I had 2 follicles at size 20. This is a big growth as 3 days before that they were 13s. Generally they grow 1mm each day. Mine grew about 2mm each day, I suppose that could be because of the increase in medication for me. I am not sure what sizes the other follicles were but I would estimate they grew about 4-6mm from what they were at my last appointment as well. I do not know what the odds of all of those follicles having eggs, or how many eggs might be released. I was given my HCG shot right there on the spot and told to come back tomorrow for the IUI @ 9am.

My abdomen has been feeling really full and I have been taking naps every day (so not normal for me). My mind feels fuzzy much of the time, like I cant completely concentrate on anything completely.

My Mr. is an amazing man. We don't sit down and have long drawn out conversations about what is going on, but we do discuss our fears, dreams, hopes. We hope and pray that it works this time. We know there is a much higher chance of getting pregnant this month but IF we don't we also know that it isn't the end of our journey. We know people who have gotten pregnant spontaneously after going through much more, with DX of IF and knowing what is wrong. We wont give up our hope, although sometimes it is insanely difficult and we feel as though we have been run over by a dump truck.

Mid-cycle

Had my mid-cycle appointment this morning. Luckily I did not have Ms. Meany-pants. The nurse took a look and said everything is looking good. My lining is over a 10. I have 4 follicles on each ovary and 2 on each side are growing nicely. The right side has 2 follicles at size 13+ and the left has 2 follicles at 11+ and 10+. We are praying in the next 3 days the left side catches up to the right side. I am to continue with the 3amps Menopur and go back to the RE on Thursday. We are looking at a Friday or Saturday IUI.

I am scared that this is our last shot.
I am frightened it wont work, or if it does that the pregnancy wont be viable.
I am prayerful. Lord please help me through this.

Last Chance

I went in for my baseline appointment and I was given the all clear. The 3 cysts are gone, thank the Lord! The protocol for this round has been changed slightly. I will still take 2 tablets of Clomid for 5 days. After that I will be doing 3amps of Menopur (up from 2 the previous cycles) until the follicles are large enough and we are ready to do the IUI.

The nurse I saw today was quite rude. Telling me it was not okay to show up on day 2 of my cycle instead of day 3. (does it really make a difference?) She reprimanded me even though I explained I had to be down at my mom's that evening and there was no way I would have been able to come in on Saturday morning. Said next time if that happened I would just have to cancel the cycle and come back the following month. (look at my chart, there wont be a NEXT MONTH!) I really dislike her. She is always in a foul mood.