ONE

I am not sure how it came to be that our miracle is about to turn ONE. He is an amazing bundle of joy: he is adventurous, he is curious, he is a climber, he loves water, he is full of laughter and has mischief in his eyes. We love him beyond measure.

That being said this is not how we pictured our family in the beginning. We talked of having three kids. We began naming them even before we were engaged. It was fun to talk about this future.

We were naive.

But there is still hope.

We have been given an incredible gift with our N8! In fact his name means 'God has given'.

We have 2 more littles waiting for their chance at life. It feels more nerve wracking thinking about our FET as it will be our one chance at a sibling for N8. There are still many dollars we will need to raise and save and sell things and recycle bottles before we will get to have our chance. Coming to terms that it is only a chance and it is our only is difficult. The first time around we were given a minimum of 2 chances... now we only have one chance.

In the months ahead as we begin to save up once again we would love your prayers.

Really? Really!

Just what every infertile wants to see every single time they have to go in for a sonogram to see how their follicles are doing...

A WALL OF BABIES!

Sometimes it gives me hope, sometimes it makes me mad.

Look at all those beautiful miracles, where's ours?

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The Mr. has already begun to have weird dreams about babies. I think most of them are inspired by the movie that is coming out License to Wed. At least in his dreams he is changing diapers that gives me hope for the future. ;)